Mark is at Home. And I am here.

June 6, 2014 by 23 Comments


Mark has been in Heaven for over 48 hours as of right now.  Two days in Glory with His beloved Jesus, our Savior.

March 31-April 28, 2014 Iphone 1160

Can you believe it? I’m still trying to catch my breath and believe this is best. This little life is so short in comparison to what’s to come. It truly is for the Christian not our best life now, but later. When we are face to face with the One who loves us the most.

It’s been 17 long months of fighting the fight of his life with brain cancer. I type this with mixed & strong emotions. My love can not be seen with my eyes anymore nor can I hold his hand any longer. Or see his precious smile and laugh that I have grown to love more and more over the 5 years God gave to us in marriage. These were the best & hardest 5 years of my life. Yet I would not trade these 5 years that provided growth in my faith in Jesus and more intimacy with Jesus then we could ever ask for. Through the joys and trials we shared, we have seen the Lord’s faithfulness. And for that there is much gratefulness to our Lord.

The One who made him for His glory, he can see with an unveiled face. We see dimly here on earth but now my Marky sees fully the eyes of His risen Savior. He is beholding Jesus and in His glory for eternity with no pain, no cancer, no tears, no more struggle or sin. He is actually sitting with Jesus right now full of joy and rest. He is healthy. He is free from all his sorrows and he no longer has to fight the good fight of faith. For his faith is now sight at the moment he took his last breath early Wednesday morning at 4:10am. He then immediately opened his eyes to Jesus who welcomed him into His embrace and the safety of His arms. He now is at perfect rest and peace with clear vision of His Savior who loves him and bought him and gave him freedom by the perfect blood that was shed on the Cross.

Mark could not wait to be with His Jesus. He knew that there would be a day where he no longer had to ask the question like in Psalm 13, “How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?”.  He now can say with no hesitation what this Psalmist said in the last two verses of Psalm 13:5-6,


“But I have trusted in your steadfast love; my heart shall rejoice in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, because He has dealt bountifully with me.


Indeed, the Lord has dealt bountifully with my Marky. With me too.

He has given us much to be thankful in the midst of such loss. I sit here with confidence in my God whose promises to me are always, “Yes and Amen!” I am sorrowful but not one who sorrows with out hope. For by the grace of God, I have seen how fragile this life is and how I desperately long to follow my Savior on the narrow road that He has planned for me all the way to glory. Just like the way my sweet Marky walked. He walked with the grace that Lord gave him to declare to the world that the Lord is good in the face of cancer. And that our God will deliver us from the domain of darkness and has transferred us to the kingdom of His beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins (Colossians 1:13-14).


The Lord gave me these verses a few days before my Marky passed to be with Jesus in Isaiah 43:18-21:

“Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert. The wild beasts will honor me, the jackals and the ostriches, for I will give water in the wilderness, rivers in the desert, to give drink to my chosen people, the people whom I formed for myself that they might declare my praise.”


The Lord has promised to do a new thing. He has promised to make a way in the wilderness and give me a drink in the desert, so that I may declare praise to my God. I never thought I would be seeing my dear momma pass away just 2 and half months before my dear husband passed away. For both are in glory declaring praise to God! And I am to remain here to declare praise to God on earth. To declare to the world that the One who promises such things is trustworthy and worthy to be trusted. Jesus is worthy of any suffering for He leads us on paths of righteousness for His name sake.

We are in the wilderness and desert right now. Yet, I believe that my Lord will deliver me and my children and family through this wilderness so that we can declare His glory that He is worthy of worship because of His kindness in giving eternity with His Son. My momma and husband would desire many to run to Jesus for forgiveness of sins and eternal life. They are experiencing this reality right now.

Consider Jesus. Consider what the little life is all about. And if you do not know, please ask. Please seek out and find. For the door will be open to any who knock and you will find what your heart has been longing for. Jesus is the treasure. He truly is the King. And He will make a way for us in this wilderness by His mercy and love. Even with the loss of my dear husband, Jesus is still with me forever and always.

Thank you for your continued prayers and love to all of us as we grieve with hope in our Savior.

Here is the link to the Obituary that was written for my beloved. All glory to our King. For He alone is faithful!





23 Responses to “Mark is at Home. And I am here.”
  1. Bethany T says:

    Anna, you are so inspiring and you point us all to Jesus. Thank you for sharing this journey and I pray for you everyday, for strength, courage and wisdom–although I know you already possess it. Mark was a wonderful person who touched so many lives in his short life here on earth. Now he will be your loving guide from heaven :)

  2. carol says:

    Love and blessings for your family. You will never know how much I have learned about God and Salvation from your sharings.

  3. Sarah says:

    So sorry for your loss, but thankful for Mark’s gain (and your perspective!). We’re praying for you and the kids as you grieve and hope and adjust to life without him.
    Much love,
    Nathan and Sarah Fullerton

  4. So sorry for your loss Anna, sending much love and heartfelt prayers your way.
    Blessings to you and your sweet family,
    moni and bert

  5. Jen Hewett says:

    I am so sorry for your family’s loss and so thankful Mark is with The Lord. Thank you for directing us all to our hope in The Lord! I love you Anna and my thoughts and prayers are with you.

    Love in Christ Jesus,
    Greg and Jennifer Hewett

  6. Marria B. says:

    Your faith & trust in God is truly amazing & inspiring. I appreciate you & Mark sharing your struggles with us all, & teaching us how to be better followers of the Lord & not lose faith. Mark will be missed by many.

  7. Laurie Wright says:

    God bless you and your family Anna! I pray that God will surround you with his love through family and friends who gather around you!

    This is a time for others to comfort you and yet through your faithful post, you are comforting and ministering to others! You and your family are truly an inspiration.

    Praise God for the time you had on this side of heaven with Mark! We will continue to lift you and your family up in prayer!

    Peace be with you Sister!

  8. Jasmin says:

    Dear Anna,
    It has been twelve years since we spent a term together at Capernwray. This morning I saw a link posted by Victoria about the passing of your husband. I am so sorry for your loss of such a dear and treasured friend, companion, husband and father. I read a devotional this morning by Spurgeon that spoke about the glory of being reunited with Christ in the fullness and perfection of the bodies, the natures and the eternal purpose we were created for and the joy of that which can only be fully comprehended when in His presence. I am humbled and inspired by your words that speak to the comfort in death that can only be found in Christ. I pray that His grip on your heart, thoughts and emotions would truly bring peace that passes understanding and that you, your children and your family would be sheltered and comforted in the shadow of His wings.

    Much love and prayers to you and yours in this difficult time.
    Jasmin (and Mike) Howell

  9. Jillian & Brian Preston says:

    Praying for you, sweet sister. Jesus’s spirit is so beautiful in you; praying you will continue to hold tight to His unchanging hand.

    We love y’all.

  10. Ryan Szrama says:

    I was saddened to hear of Mark’s passing and wish I could be with Immanuel to celebrate his life and his eternity. My tears and prayers are with you and your family.

  11. Carrie says:

    God bless you and your family, Anna. I read your story today for the first time, and praise God for you. Will be praying for you.

  12. Mark and Libbie Timmons says:

    Thank you Anna for sharing and beautifully trusting Christ in the midst of this darkness. We love you and miss you and are weeping. Praying for you!

  13. Collin & Cassie F. says:

    May Jesus continue to be ever near to you on the road ahead. We’re longing with you for the glorious day that He returns, and sickness and death are no more.

  14. Iverson Warinner says:

    Continued thanks and blessings, dear Anna, for so faithfully communicating of your five year journey in this life with Mark. You inspire us with your humility, and your words and victories continually point us to the Cross. I will miss Mark in this world, but I cannot wait to be reconnected with him in the world to come. His life is a testament to what living the Christian life is about. God Bless You.

  15. Bethany says:

    Anna, I am amazed at the Father’s grace for you to proclaim Christ so simply and clearly in your loss. We love you and are weeping and praying with you. So thankful you have the promises that are “yes” and “amen” dear Sister! May Christ grow even more real and sweet to you as the days pass…

  16. Jen Hoos says:

    Dear Girl….

    My father-in-law died in a car accident last July, my mother went to be with Jesus in October and my brother passed away in January, I sympathize with your pain and loss, and exult with you in the promise and the joy of the resurrection.

    A youtube video that I watched and listened to over and over again after my Mama’s homegoing was this, If You Could See Me Now. It brought comfort. It still brings comfort…but not without tears. Here ’tis:

    May the presence of the RISEN Lord light your way.

    Hugs from an older sister in Christ you’ve never met…


  17. Laura Roe says:

    Anna, you are such a testament! I have you and your dear family in my prayers as you all grieve the passing of your sweet hubby. He would be so proud of the grace you have shown! Although you do not know me, please know that I and many others have you close in our thoughts!

  18. Oh sweet girl, my heart aches for you. I found you a few months ago through Aimee. I had forgotten that you guys had lost your sweet mama too. Oh what pain! I have been reminded that we have a God who walks WITH us. Prayers continue.

  19. Missy Schierloh says:

    Anna, I have never met you or Mark, but have grown to love and pray for you both as your sweet sister, Ali, kept us updated here in Texas. Not only have my husband and I prayed for your family, but my 3 children as well. Each day we walked by you picture on our fridge and would say prayers for Gods grace on your husband. I know God did not answer all our prayers the way WE wanted, but His ways are perfect. Your faith through these trials is inspirational to me. Thank you for staying true to our Savior and in turn, blessing so many who have shared your journey.

  20. Wendy says:

    Anna, you have my prayer from Taiwan, Asia. Thanks for your living testament.

  21. Emily O. says:

    Anna, our hearts ache with you at Mark’s passing, but rejoice in his home-going. Thank you for your continued testimony of the gospel in your life. We’re praying for you and the kids.

  22. Allison B. says:

    Dear Anna,

    We have never met and I only knew Mark as an acquaintance in high school, but I saw a link to your blog on Facebook today. I simply want to say that I am amazed and inspired by your faith, strength, and love. My prayers are with your entire family.


  23. Kaye Ann says:

    Dear Anna, I just now found your site. I have been perusing your posts and found the story of your love, Mark. There must have been great love there. Your beautiful children I lift up to the LORD for protection. FOR YOU, my friend I want to pray a touch of Jesus to your heart. It’s Dec. 12th and Christmas is almost here. I pray that you have the best Christmas possible and know that Mark is enjoying his first Christmas in heaven.

    I too, encountered a loss this year. Mine was on May 23. My precious daughter, Heather passed away and walked into the arms of her Creator. She had battled cancer for 4 years… in and out of treatment. My life has forever been changed by her death and I don’t think I’ll ever be the same. Me and my family, like you and yours, are still finding our new normal. I believe that Heather is wrapped in the arms of Jesus without cancer, totally healed. She’s fine, just like your Mark is fine. It’s just that I’m not. I still cry and ache for her. Little things remind me of her and my heart breaks all over again. I’m looking forward to the great reunion with her in heaven some day soon, hopefully. Just had to reach out to you. May GOD bless your heart. Prayers for you!!

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